Shawn Michael Manikam

Shawn I'll most definately treasure every memory I had with you. Like on my 12th birthday... GOSH!!! What a day! I can still remember that smile you gave me at breakfast. Cuz, I wish that God cud just send you down 4 a while. Ur mummy wud be soooooo happy to c u and hold u! I just wanna tel u how much I love you. I wrote a song 4 you. So here it goes:

 

Verse 1-

We all her together

Thinking about good times

We all share the laughter

And remember your great smile

Its so hard to see that you are not here

but with the strength from The Father

I'll make it through the day

 

Chorus-

When I miss you

I close my eyes and say.. Oh I Love You

Love you till the day we meet again

And Abba Father I pray to help me through these days

YOU ARE MY REFUGE, MY STRENGTH

And with You I'll see my Loved One again!

 

Verse 2-

Everytime when I'm feeling, hurt and when I'm in pain

I look at pictures

It just makes me feel so safe

Thinking of Heaven...

Yes I wanna be there with you!

I will keep my Faith

For I know that theres a way

 

Back to chorus...

The End...

 

Hope you like it! just gotta pull in some chords and I'll sing it to you everyday! I Love u my angel!!!!!!! Gonna eat nw:) Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaah!             

HEY SHAWN, FIRSTLY I THANK OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST FOR BLESSING US WITH A PERSON LIKE YOU. I REALLY MISS YOU AND WISH THAT YOU COULD BE HERE... BUT YOU'RE IN A BETTER PLACE REJOICING IN THE CLOUDS OF GLORY! I REALLY ADMIRE YOU FOR THE LIFE YOU LED. WOW! U DID ALL OF US PROUD. RIGHT NOW I CAN PICTURE YOU SMILING. IT MAKES ME WANNA CRY COS I MISS YOU SO BADLY SHAWN. U WERE ALWAYS HERE FOR US WHENEVER WE NEEDED YOU. NO ONE WOULD EVER REPLACE YOU BRU. WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SEE ALL DA CUZNS PROGRESSING SO MUCH IN MUSIC AND WORSHIP. YOU ARE THE REASON FOR THIS!!!!! I JUST WANNA THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND SOON WE'LL BE TOGETHER... WORSHIPPING OUR LORD! I LOVE YOU! FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!!

hello big brother, today is your birthday... Happy birthday Una... cant call you by your name you never allowed me to. wish you were here so i could wish you and give you a big hug and kiss on your soft face, you have the softest skin ever, i used to tell you like girls hands you have. catch my tears as they flow down my face.  i remember the day you got married i was one of the last people to  wish you, i told you i got no flowers to throw on you and you said never mind pick from the floor and throw on me...... and you gave me the biggest hug i've ever felt my whole entire life... i would give anything to feel that hug now.... i love you always

FOUR YEARS AGO TODAY WAS THE EVE OF YOUR WEDDING .YOU WERE SO HAPPY I CAN STILL IMAGINE THE SMILE ON YOUR HANDSOME FACE THE FUN AND LAUGHTER WE ALL SHARED IT WAS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE IT ONLY LASTED FOR A SHORT TIME.I OFTEN WANDER WHY GOD NEVER ALLOW YOU TO BE AROUND AT LEAST FOR ONE OF YOUR ANNIVERSARY.YOU HAD SO MUCH PLANS FOR YOUR FIRST YEAR OF MARRIAGE.SON THANK YOU FOR BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES I REMEMBER HOW WE DANCED TOGETHER HOW WE LAUGHED WITH EACH OTHER.4 YEARS AGO I WAS SO HAPPY BECAUSE THE NEXT DAY MY SON WAS GETTING MARRIED I GUESS THATS EVERY MOTHER'S DREAM TO SEE HER CHILDREN GET MARRIED AND LIVE A HAPPY LIFE.I WAITED FOR THE DAY THAT ALL MY CHILDREN WOULD GET MARRIED AND HAVE THEIR OWN FAMILY .I IMAGINED THAT EVERY WEEKENDS MY CHILDREN COMING OVER WITH THEIR KIDS  AND OUR HOME WILL BE FULL OF FUN AND LAUGHTER , BUT NOW IT SEEMS MY DREAM WILL NEVER HAPPEN IN THIS LIFE.  BECAUSE ONE LINK OF THE FAMILY CHAIN IS BROKEN.NOW I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THAT REUNION TO TAKE PLACE IN HEAVEN ..SHAWN YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY PRECIOUS SON NO ONE CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE IN MY LIFE.EACH ONE OF YOU ARE SPECIAL AND UNIQUE IN YOUR OWN WAY GOD MADE YOU ALL SPECIAL IN DIFFERENT WAYS HOW DO I GO THROUGH THIS WEEK PLEASE COME VISIT ME IN MY DREAMS EVERY NIGHT I NEED YOU SO MUCH IN MY LIFE. 

TODAY WAS INDEED A DAY FULL OF BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES FOR ME .IT WAS A WEEK TO YOUR WEDDING AND 15TH OCTOBER WAS THANKSGIVING AT HOME YOU INSISTED THAT WE HAVE THE TENT ON FOR TWO WEEKS OUR HOME WAS DECORATED WITH SO MUCH OF LIGHTS IT WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT SO MUCH OF FAMILY MEMBERS HELPING TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING WAS IN ORDER FOR THE DAY .AS IT WAS THE  WEDDING OF THE FIRST GRANDSON AND ELDEST NEPHEW ON BOTH SIDES OF THE FAMILY.SHAWN I REMEMBER THAT I WANTED TO GIVE YOU WHATEVER YOUR HEART DESIRED.DAD AND I WERE SO HAPPY THAT YOU WERE GETTING MARRIED.I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR TESTAMONY YOU THANKED GOD FOR PROTECTING YOU ON MANY OCCASIONS WHERE YOU ALMOST GOT HIJACKED WITH YOUR BAKKIE  YOU ALSO ASKED THE PEOPLE NOT TO TRAMP YOUR FLOWER GARDEN  AND TO ALSO WATCH OUT FOR YOUR POND IN THE GARDEN EVERYONE JUST LAUGHED.I ALSO REMEMBERED WHILE SITTING AND LISTENING TO THE PASTOR PREACH HIS MESSAGE WE WERE PLAYING WITH EACH OTHERS HANDS. IT SUR WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE YOU LOVED THANKSGIVING.WHEN EVERYTHING WAS OVER I SAT TO HAVE SUPPER YOU CAME AND SAT NEXT TO ME PUT YOUR ARMS AROUND MY NECK AND ASKED MY BROTHER JOSY TO TAKE A PHOTO OF US .SO EVERY TIME I SEE THAT PHOTO I JUST CRY I NEVER KNEW THAT WOULD BE THE LAST PHOTO OF JUST THE BOTH OF US.EVEN AT YOUR WEDDING I DIDNT GET A CHANCE TO TAKE A PHOTO OF US ALONE.I GUESS YOU MUST HAVE KNOWN THAT IT WAS  GOING TO BE LAST ONE OF US TOGATHER .I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE THAT PRECIOUS MOMENT SHAWN I NEVER IMAGINED MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU .YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY PRECIOUS SON NOW AND FOREVER.ILOVE YOU SO MUCH MY LIFE SEEMS SO EMPTY I JUST PRETEND EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT I DONT WANT OTHERS TO KNOW I HURTING BECAUSE THEY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE PAIN AND SUFFERING I AM GOING THROUGH.I ONLY WISH THAT GOD WILL SOON CALL US ALL HOME SO THAT THERE WILL BE NO MORE SUFFERING HERE ON EARTH. GOODNIGHT SWEETHEART I LOVE YOU.THANK YOU FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES

ANGEL I HAD A DREAM ABOUT YOU BEING GRADUATED IN HEAVEN..
I DREAMT THAT I WAS SITTING IN THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND ALSO THE LARGEST CONFERENCE CENTRE THAT I EVER SAW.  THE PLACE WAS FULL OF PEOPLE WHOM  I NEVER KNEW EVERYTHING WAS QUIET NOBODY EVER SPOKE A WORD EVERYBODY SAT STILL AND THERE WAS  BEAUTIFUL MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACK GROUND IT WAS A SOOTHING KIND OF MUSIC.  WHEN I LOOKED AT THE STAGE THERE WAS TWO CHAIRS IT WAS GOLD IN COLOR IT LOOKED SIMILAR TO  CHAIRS THE ONE YOU SAT IN  AT YOUR WEDDING RECEPTION.  ON ONE CHAIR I SAW A PAIR OF VERY LARGE HANDS RESTING ON THE ARMREST THOSE HANDS WERE SO LARGE I TRIED TO LOOK AT THE FACE OF THE PERSON SITTING ON THE CHAIR I COULD NOT SEE THE FACE IT WAS SO BRIGHT I COULD NOT SEE A THING BECAUSE IT WAS JUST A BRIGHT SHINING LIGHT ALL I SAW WAS THE FEET AND HANDS AND THE PERSON SITTING ON THE CGAIR WORE THE MOST  BEAUTIFUL ROBE IN GOLD AND PURPLE..ISAT IN AWE OF WHAT I SAW.A LITTLE WHILE LATER I SAW THREE PERSONS ARRIVING AS I LOOKED I SAW MY PRECIOUS SHAWN IN THE CENTRE AND ANGELS HOLDING HIS HAND ON EITHER SIDE I WAS SO AMAZED AT WHAT I SAW SHAWN WORE A PURE WHITE ROBE WITH A PURPLE CAPE ON TOP AND ON HIS HEAD WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CROWN LADEN WITH PRECIOUS JEWELS OF EVERY COLOR.
 TEARS JUST ROLLED DOWN MY CHEEKS I TURNED TO THE LADY SITTING ON MY RIGHT AND ASKED HER WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO MY SON SHE SMILED AND SAID TO ME THESE WORDS. WE ANGELS BROUGHT YOU HERE TO WITNESS YOUR SONS GRADUATION IN HEAVEN. THEN THE TWO ANGELS TOOK SHAWN AND MADE HIM SIT NEXT TO THE  PERSON, I THEN SAW THE VERY HUGE HANDS HOLD SHAWN'S HAND I TRIED TO SPEAK TO SHAWN BUT I WAS TOLD TO BE QUIET BECAUSE THAT MOMENT CANNOT BE DISTURBED. SHAWN LOOKED SO HANDSOME NOT A SPOT ON HIS FACE HE WAS RADIANT. I THEN GOT UP FROM MY SLEEP IT WAS 3--17 IN THE MORNING I GOT MIKE UP FROM HIS SLEEP TO SHARE MY DREAM WITH HIM. I WAS SO HAPPY AT WHAT I SAW. I THEN REALISED THAT MANY TIMES IN MY PRAYER I ASKED GOD WHY DID HE ALLOW ME TO MISS SHAWN'S HOMECOMING I FELT THAT I WAS CHEATED AT SEEING MY CHILD'S GRADUATION SERVICE IN HEAVEN. EVERY DAY I THANK GOD FOR MY DREAM .

TO EVERY MOM OUT THERE REMEMBER GOD SEES OUR TEARS HE HAS A REASON TO TAKE OUR KIDS AWAY.I KNOW ITS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING TO LIVE WITHOUT OUR CHILDREN . BUT REMEMBER GOD'S PROMISE IN THE BOOK OF  ISIAAH 55 V 3. (GOD SAYS COME TO ME AND LIVE I PROMISE YOU ETERNAL LOVE AND LOYALTY THAT I PROMISE DAVID)
AND ALSO IN ISIAAH 57 V1 GOD SAYS ( THAT THE ELECT ARE TAKEN AWAY BEFORE ANY EVIL COMES TO THEM )
 OUR CHILDREN ARE AWAY FROM THE TROUBLES OF THIS WORLD THEY DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TOMMOROW BECAUSE GOD HAS FOUND FAVOUR IN OUR PRECIOUS CHILDREN SO THATS WHY HE CHOOSE THEM THEY HAVE FINISHED THE RACE THAT GOD SET BEFORE THEM THEY BEAT US TO THIS RACE.
 ALL OUR CHILDREN ARE SAYING TO US  COME ON FAMILY WE ARE IN A BETTER PLACE EARTH IS NOT A PLACE YOU WANT TO BE .
SO JOIN US IN GOD'S KINGDOM. TO SOME PARENTS THESE WORDS MAY BE HARD WORDS BUT THROUGH OUR PAIN WE FIND COMFORT IN GOD'S PRECIOUS WORD BECAUSE THATS THE PROMISE OF OUR CREATOR LORD JESUS CHRIST. 

REMEMBER THAT GOD SAID IN HEBREWS 11 V 13. (THAT THEY WERE GLAD TO SEE THE THINGS GOD PROMISE FROM AFAR AND THEY AGREED THEY WERE STRANGERS HERE ON EARTH.THEY COULD HAVE GONE BACK ANYTIME BUT THEY CHOOSE NOT TO  BECAUSE THEY WERE LOOKING FOR A BETTER HOME IN HEAVEN. THATS WHY GOD WAS NOT ASHAMED FOR THEM TO CALL HIM THEIR GOD FOR HE HAD BUILT A CITY FOR HIS CHILDREN)

PRECIOUS SON I WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE MOMENTS WE SHARED TOGETHER .EVERY MOMENT WAS A BLESSING TO ME . I REMEMBER WHEN YOU FIRST WENT TO PRE SCHOOL I TOOK U ON MY OWN I COULD NOT LEAVE YOU THERE WITH THE TEACHERS I FELT SO HURT WHEN YOU CRIED.SO I DECIDED TO WAIT IN THE CORRIDOR UNTIL YOU FINISHED SCHOOL AROUND MID DAY.  THE TEACHERS USED TO ASK ME LEAVE BECAUSE YOU WILL GET OVER THE CRYING .  BUT MUMMY COULD NOT LEAVE YOU THERE SHAWN I LOVED YOU TO MUCH .THE WHOLE YEAR I SAT IN SCHOOL UNTIL U FINISHED AND THEN WE WOULD MARCH BACK TO HOME .THE FOLLOWING YEAR YOU WAS USED TO GOING WITH YOUR UNCLES AND I WAS BRAVE I HAD SOME ONE TO TAKE CARE OF MY SON.   WHEN YOU STARTED SECONDRY SCHOOL I TOOK U AND PICKED YOU  UP FROM SCHOOL .I WAS SO PROTECTED OF MY CHILDREN I COULD NOT BE WITHOUT THEM..BUT I THANK GOD THAT I SPENT SO MUCH TIME WITH YOU MY PRECIOUS SON .

my precious son no amount of words can ever express the pain i feel from losing you. on the third of july it will be 3 years since losing you in the car accident. shawn there is'nt a day that i don't think about you .i miss that beautiful smile everytime you came through the door. there was'nt a day i saw anger on your face.

i miss you leading praise and worship in church.for me being in church is so difficult,each time i walk into the church i desire to see you on the platform  strumming your guitar

 there is so much i miss about you shawn, you were not only my son you were my best friend  my confidante .i never knew that morning i would hear your footsteps for the last time in our home.i just cannot understand that everytime you went out of the house you always told me you are going and i will hold your hands and we will pray together then you will point your finger to your cheeks for me to kiss your cheeks. but on that fateful morning you went away without saying goodbye you never gave me your last kiss. that is what's  killing me .i  love you so  much even though you are with jesus my love for you keeps growing my child.  when a child loses there parent we call them orphans,when a man loses his wife we call him a widower,when a woman loses her husband we call her a widow,but when a parent loses thier child there is no word to describe thier pain so what do we call them.everyday i hope that you will walk through the door and everything will be the way it was  when you were here.i love you my precious son i will never ever forget your beautiful smile all i can say is that heaven needed a true worshipper like you.son its only goodnight i will see you on the ressurrection morning.thank you jesus for taking care of my son.