Shawn Michael Manikam

My precious child, how I miss you no one can ever understand my heart aches so much for  you the  longing to see you ,to touch you and to hear you lovely voice calling  for me.  Ma, mum ,mom mom, or mummy from your mouth I will never ever hear again in this lifetime. .
 I was thinking so much of you and all the things we did  for the celebration of  my eldest child's wedding. So much joy and excitement filled our home. I will never forget those moments and how I danced with you.Oh my son how I miss dancing with you. Everytime i hear the songs we danced for i just start to cry my heart out.
II thank God for all the things we did as a family becos today those happy moments  are beautiful and precious memories. I never knew that all the joy we shared will come to an end so soon
23rd Oct 2014 would have been 10 years of marriage for you, but God did not want it that way instead he wanted you with him,
My precious child I will never understand why????????????  this had to happen , I look on this site and see so many young children have passed on . And so many grieving parents it just breaks my heart so much. I can identify with all these precious parents .i feel their pain and their agony of losing their kids. 
I really don't know how I will pass through these couple of days. It could have been a great week of celebration. But instead kits different.
Tomorrow is also your sis in laws  birthday , shawn you would have been proud of Rohanne she is so good to us . Friday it's your dads birthday, he misses  you by his side every year you and dad will light candles and cut the cake on two dates, you'll always celebrated together now he does not care about his birthday
and Saturday is your birthday. My baby would have been turning 34. I missed so many of your birthdays . Wish I was in heaven with you too.
Please do not forget the love we have for you , you are missed and treasured so much. Shawn your brother and sisters miss you a lot. They try to be strong. we try so hard to hid our tears from each other. Daniel misses you so much he has being asking a lot of questions from his mom as to why all thishappened.
I also wish I could get answers to my questions. Maybe someday I will.
Shawn please visit us in our dreams , let's us see your beautiful handsome face even if it's only in our dreams we will be satisfied.
 I love you so much ,I miss you with all my heart , 
Pits one day closer to seeing the face of my beautiful Angel son 
Its only goodnight my child .Until the resurrection morning
 

Have seen so many pictures of you, but the face I remember is on this picture, only with a much bigger smile and a whole lot os teeth.

Please, don't ask me if I'm over it yet
I'll never get over it
Please, dont tell me he's in a better place
He's not here with me
Please, don't say at least he isn't suffering
I haven't come to terms with why he had to suffer at all
Please, don't tell me you know how I feel
Unless you have lost a child
Please, don't ask me if I feel better
Bereavment isn't a condition that clears up
Please, don't tell me you had him for so many years
What year would you chose for your child to die?
Please, don't tell me God never gives more than we can bear
Please, just say you are sorry
Please, just say you remember my chld
Please, just let me talk about my child
Please mention my child's name
Please, just let me cry.

Another year, another anniversary, another birthday and you r not here, but everyday we r reminded of you in some way, and we continue to miss you.I can only imagine the great celebration we would have had during this week if you were still here, but I guess God had bigger plans for you.Your family need you very much this week, Please be close to them.We can never begin to understand the pain your mum feels,her loss is tremendous and although she puts on a brave face for the rest of the family, I know her heart aches to hold you and see your handsome face.As a mother I wish there was something I could do to help her,but I know the only thing she desires is for you to be here. May the warm embrace of GOD'S overwhelming love surround your family during this time, catch every tear that falls and every kiss that is blown to heaven. We love and miss you

hi my darling cousin.......today  the 23rd of october2013 we were at ur house wid Ro on her birthday..........n ur weddin anniversary.....cuz u looked so hansum wid ur hat u so exited ........the memories we shared wen jo  an I used to cum stay over......Ill never forget the cheese curls....lol...........Ur dad cried today cuz coz tomoro is his birthday its so hard for him.........I cAn only imagine his pain UR Bulz like u used to call him misses u dearly..we all wish we cud c that smile again cuz ......we laughed wid DAZ today can imagine hw it wd hav been wid u ere I LOVE U.........TILL we MEET AGAIN...HAppy birthday for the 25 th our Angel.....mwa

SHE LOVES AND MISSES YOU SO MUCH

MY PRECIOUS SHAWN THERES JUST ONE FAVOR IB ASK BE WITH YOUR BRO. I KNOW HE MISSES YOU SO MUCH. DARYL IS OPENING A NEW PLANT IN THE BUSINESS . THE MACHINES HAVE ARRIVED FROM OVERSEAS, YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN SO EXCITED TO WITH EVERY THING HAPPENING AT WORK,
I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE FOR YOUR SIBLINGS.CAN YOU BELIEVE YOUR BABY SIS IS FINISHING SCHOOL. SHE LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE HER BIG BROTHER. 
LAST NIGHT I WENT TO OUR CHURCH CRUSADE . AND THERES THIS GUY WHO LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU AND ALSO PLAYS THE GUITAR .I COULD NOT TAKE MY EYES OF HIM. I WISHED FOR A MOMENT IT WAS YOU. 
YOU ARE LOVED SO MUCH 

Treasured memories

MY DEAREST ANGEL SON
GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I MISS AND LOVE YOU, I THINK OF YOU EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE, SOMETIMES I LIKE TO LIVE IN SILENCE BECAUSE OF MY BROKENESS AND HURT OF LOSING YOU. I WANT TO BE ALONE. THIS PAIN IS SO INTENCE THAT EVERYTIME I THINK OF YOU IT JUST GETS DEEPER AND DEEPER.
I OFTEN ASK WHY DID THE LORD DO THIS TO US, AND WHY THIS BLOW HAS STRUCK YOU AND BROKE OUR HEART, BUT THERES NO ANSWER. 

WE PREPARE OURSELVES FOR SO MANY THINGS IN OUR LIFE ,BUT WE DO NOT PREPARE FOR DEATH. TODAY I FIND IT SO HARD TO PUT THE WORD DEATH TO YOUR NAME, BUT WHEN GOD CHOOSES TO TAKE US THROUGH THIS PATH,  WHAT CAN WE SAY OR DO?," BUT GOD YOUR WILL IS OUR REWARD"  GOD ALONE GAVE YOU TO US,TO BE OUR CHILD;
FOR 24 YEARS 8 MONTHS AND 8 DAYS WE ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU, NOW LIFE SEEMS SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOU IN IT,

TODAY GOD IS MY ONLY HOPE BECAUSE OF HIM SOMEDAY SOON WE WILL MEET AGAIN.
REMEMBER HOW OFTEN WE USE TO SPEAK ABOUT THE TIMES WHEN ALL OF YOU WOULD BE MARRIED AND EVERY WEEKEND WE WILL GET TOGETHER AT HOME HAVE LUNCH WITH OUR FAMILIES, AND ENJOY THE DAY. NOW THERES A MISSING LINK IN MY FAMILY CHAIN THAT CAN NEVER BE REPLACED NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE TRY.BECAUSE THAT LINK IS THE STRONGEST AND THE MAIN LINK. THATS YOU MY CHILD.
I MISS US.
SOMEDAYS I SHUT MYSELF IN MY ROOM AND I CRY AND CRY AND CRY, TILL THERES NO VOICE AND NO MORE TEARS,
SOMEDAYS I LIVE IN A HOPE THAT ITS ONLY A BAD BAD DREAM I WANT TO WAKE UP AND FIND YOU HERE WITH US, 
SHAWN I WISH I COULD JUST HEAR YOUR GENTLE VOICE, THERES SO MUCH TO TELL YOU, I LOVE YOU
I MISS THE TIMES YOU AND I COULD JUST SIT AND TALK ABOUT THINGS,YOU WERE MY BEST FRIED I COULD RELATE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING TO YOU WITHOUT BEING QUESTIONED.
YOU WOULD JUST LISTEN AND THEN GIVE ME THE BEST ADVICE I MISS THAT SO MUCH. EVERY DAY MEMORIES FLOODS MY MIND TEARS ROLL DOWN MY CHEEKS AND THEN I START MISSING YOU MORE, EVERY DAY I ASK GOD TO REMIND YOU OF MY LOVE AND TO GIVE YOU A HUG AND KISS AND TELL YOU ITS FROM MOMMY.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE DAY I SEE YOU AGAIN WITH JESUS, GOD HAS TRULY MADE ME AN OVERCOMER, THE JOY OF THE LORD HAS NOW BECOME MY STRENGHT, I KNOW IT WON'T BE LONG BEFORE THAT DARK CLOUD THAT HAS BEEN BLOCKING THE SUN IS SURE TO MOVE OUT.
SOMEDAYS IS SO HARD IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE TO GO ON WITH OUT YOU. THATS WHEN I LOOK TO GOD BECAUSE HE SAYS "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH HIM", SO IM HOLDING HIM TO THAT,
I LOVE YOU MY SON. THANK YOU FOR BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE HAVE CREATED, THESE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS BE TREASURED. I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER .
MY FOREVER LOVE. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN 

Thinking of you

Thinking of you always

Hey there, cant begin to imagine how the years have gone by. It's hard to believe that it is your eigth angelversary.  We miss you terrribly and think of you all the time.  Your name is mentioned often as we remember the days we spent together.  Remember how anything and everything turned into an occassion with you - just shopping for groceries, birthday and anniversary gifts, go carting, movies, dog and car expos.  We used to do everything together - miss the fun. After all these years Shaun, you memory has not waned nor the love that we shared.  Every June, the memories start flooding to my mind, the last month and all the things we did and said the last braai - everyone went home but not you, you stayed to help me clean up ended up with us right till the next morning eating all the chocolate we could find -  and then comes bitter sweet July.  I couldn't forget that first week even if i tried.  Every single thing spoken has not left my mind, every single event like it just happened and then that horrible morning. I wish the Holy Spirit was more specific that night, maybe you would still be here.  That day was like a dream for many of us, each of us participating in the dream as if in a daze waiting to wake up and realise the accident had not occurred, but alas it was not to be. I know that we can ask a million whys and never find the answers we search for, we can wish everyday for you to come back, but you would never choose to, so we wait in anticipation for the day we re-unite in heaven, so untill that day, continue to look down from heaven and smile on us, visit your mom often - she tries to be strong but you and i  both know that she aches for you every day.  Fill her with love, grace and peace as she anxiously waits to meet you on the clouds of glory.  Help her to be strong.  We love you always

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY PRECIOUS CHILD.I CAN ONLY IMAGINE THE JOY YOU HAVE IN HEAVEN, WALKING AND TALKING WITH THE LORD AND SAVIOUR. IM ONE DAY CLOSER TO MEETING MY CHILD ,BUT UNTIL THEN I WILL BE COUNTING THE DAYS .SO MANY MEMORIES I HAVE OF YOU,BUT THE ONE THAT IS REALLY BRINGING TEARS TO MY EYES IS THE DAY I WAITED SO PATIENTLY FOR YOU TO BE BORN,WHEN I LOOKED INTO YOUR EYES I SAW THE FACE OF A CHILD WHO WILL LOVE ME FOREVER.

I KNEW THAT MY OTHER CHILDREN TO FOLLOW WILL HAVE A PERFECT LEADER. SOMEONE WHO WILL ALWAYS WATCH OVER THEM AND WHO WILL PLAY A LEADING ROLE IN THEIR LIFE.THAT YOU REALLY DID WITHOUT ANY COMPLAIN, THERE WAS NOT A DAY YOU EVER SAID ANYTHING AGAINST YOUR SIBLINGS.YOU JUST LOVED THEM SO MUCH. THANK YOU MY PRECIOUS CHILD FOR BEING THE PERFECT BROTHER TO YOUR SIBLINGS.
SHAWN THEY REALLY MISS HAVING YOU AROUND. I SEE THE PAIN IN THEIR EYES THEY TRY HARD TO HIDE IT FROM EACH OTHER. YOUR BABY SIS CRIED SO MUCH YESTERDAY.
AFTER SCHOOL SHE CAME HOME AND SLEPT,SHE HAD A DREAM OF YOU. HER EYES WERE SWOLLEN WITH ALL THE CRYING. 

SHE RESEMBLES YOU IN EVERY WAY.

SON ONLY GOD KNOW HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU.WE ALWAYS WANDER WHAT OUR LIVES WOULD HAVE BEEN IF ONLY YOU WERE STILL HERE.

LIKE THE SONG WRITER SAYS ,SUNNY DAYS SEEMS TO HURT THE MOST WE WERE THE PAIN LIKE A HEAVY COAT,
YOU DIED TO YOUNG LIKE A STORY HAS JUST BEGAN SOMETIMES WE WANDER WHO YOU WOULD BE TODAY. I WANDER WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE NAMED YOUR BABIES.JUST KNOW THE WHOLE WORLD CAN'T TAKE YOUR PLACE.
I LOVE YOU CHAMP 

TODAY IS A DAY OF MEMORIES FOR ME.  HOW WE USED TO LAUGH AND ALL THE FUN WE HAD.  IS IT ALREADY 7 YEARS SHAWN, I REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY, EVERYTHING YOU SAID AND DID ON THAT LAST SATURDAY. GOSH HOW THE TIME HAS GONE BY.  THERE ARE SO MANY ADDITIONS TO THE FAMILY, YOU SO WOULD HAVE ENJOYED BEING WITH THEM, AND ALTHOUGH THEY HAVE NEVER HAD A CHANCE TO MEET YOU HERE ON EARTH, THEY ALL SEEM TO KNOW YOU, I GUESS IT MUST BE A HEAVELY CONNECTION BETWEEN GOD'S ANGELS. 
AS I SIT HERE AND TYPE THIS I RELIVE EACH MOMENT IN MY MIND AND STILL EVEN AFTER SEVEN YEARS I CANNOT WRAP MY MIND AROUND WHAT HAPPENED, IT'S AS IF I'M HEARING THE NEWS FOR THE FIRST TIME AND THE SHOCK AND ENORMITY OF THE SITUATION STILL HASN'T SET IN.

EASTER MONDAY 2012. OUR FAMILY DECIDED TO TAKE A DRIVE IN THE AFTERNOON, THE GIRLS WANTED TO GO TO THE INDIA SHOW.

THE FIRST ONE WE WENT TO WE SAW THE CHIP AND DIP BUBBLE, OWN ONE I REMEMBERED HOW HARD YOU AND YOUR BROTHER USE TO WORK IN IT. I SAID TO DAD HOW YOU DROVE IT FROM JOSI TO BRING IT TO DURBAN, I CRIED.

MEMORY 2. FROM THERE WE WENT TO KINGSMEAD CRICKET STADIUM, WHERE THERE WAS ANOTHER BIG TENT . WE WALKED AROUND ,BOUGHT SOME STUFF AND THEN I TOOK YOUR SISTER COURTNEY OUTSIDE TO EAT. WE SAT FOR A WHILE THE REST OF THE FAMILY JOINED US.

WHILE HAVING OUR EATS THE BAND WAS PLAYING WHEN THERE WAS A SONG YOU USED TO SING JUST SO THAT YOU CAN GET ME ANGRY STARTED TO PLAY

DAD DARYL AND I JUST COULD NOT HOLD BACK THE TEARS. I COULD NOT CONTROL MY SELF I CRIED AND CRIED MY HEART OUT. I COULD NOT BOTHER WHO SAW ME I JUST WANTED YOU SO BADLY BACK IN Y LIFE THAT MOMENT.

MY SON IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYWHERE WE GO THERE IS A BEAUTIFUL MEMORY OF YOU, SOME WILL MAKE US LAUGH AND SOME WILL CERTAINLY BRING TEARS TO OUR EYES. YOU ARE SO PRECIOUS TO US, WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.

GOODNIGHT UNTIL THE RESSSURECTION MORNING SEE YOU IN THE CLOUDS OF GLORY.
IT WON'T BE LONG MY DARLING CHILD.
UNTIL THEN YOU HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH JESUS AND ALL OUR PRECIOUS ANGELS

How the time flies.  Can't believe it is already six birthdays we hven't shared together.  I love and miss you terrible.  Watch over me as you always done.

SO MANY BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES I WISH WE COULD BUILD MORE MEMORIES TOGETHER.

WE THANK GOD FOR YOU EVERY DAY
HAVE A BLESSED BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN
MISS YOU SO MUCH

GOODMORNING UNA JUST DROPPED BY TO SAY I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND REMEMBERED ALL THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES YOU AND I SHARED. MY 16TH BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WEEK AND IM SO EXCITED BUT THEN IT HITS  ME AGAIN THAT UR NOT HERE. IF YOU WER HERE I CAN JUST IMAGINE HOW DIFFERENT THINGS WOULD BE. PLEASE VISIT ME IN MY DREAMS, IT WOULD BE THE PERFECT GIFT TO SEE U AGAIN, LAUGH AND TALK WITH YOU AND FEEL UR HUGS EVEN IN A DREAM.

I LOVE YOU UNA, I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU.

MMWWAAHH...

XOXO <3 <3

 

25-10-1980----25-10-2010  = 30 WISH I HAD MORE YEARS WITH YOU. SO MANY EAUTIFUL MEMORIES CLOUDS MY MIND SHAWN .

I CAN REMEMBER EVERY DETAIL OF THE DAY I GAVE BIRTH TO YOU MY DARLING. I WAS OVERJOYED BECAUSE YOU MADE US PROUD PARENTS

HELLO BROTHER, TIME HAS GONE SO QUICKLY, TODAY YOUR ANNIVERSARY MONDAY YOUR BIRTHDAY. SO PAINFUL KNOWING YOU NOT AROUND. NOT A DAY GOES BY WITHOUT ME THINKING OF THOSE BLESSED MEMORIES WE SHARED. YOU ALWAYS SAID BROTHER FOR LIFE AND WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT EVEN THOU YOU NOT HERE. LOVE YOU BRO CANT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WHERE TAKEN SO SOON FROM US, BUT WE NO THAT GODS TIMING IS THE BEST TIMING. OUR DAYS SPENT ON EARTH WILL ALWAYS REMAIN IN MY HEART UNTIL THE DAY WE MEET AGAIN. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY !
LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU UNA